I am torn. I am puzzled. I’m upset and confused. If I’m honest, I am sitting here wishing someone could help decide what to do! Oh, yeah…I guess I should fill you in, huh? I have to choose where to go for Christmas, and I have no clue what to do. I know I know! It should be an easy choice. My Mom and Dad are out in LA with my brother, his hubby, and my new nephew. It’s Sebastian’s very first Christmas! And my sister and her kids will be there, too. It’s a no-brainer,

And gloomy… Pretty gross out today. Perfect for driving. NOT. So, of course…I’m only that much more freaked out as I watch Jonah drive away in the Prius with the STUDENT DRIVER sign on the top. Oh fuck. Not only do I officially have a kid old enough to be driving, in two weeks he’s starting high school. I can’t stop crying. In fact, I haven’t stopped crying for days. I’m filled with so many emotions. But why? Is it because Jonah is growing up so fast, or that I am? I’m turnin